1 post tagged “attraction”

Yay! So another school year has passed. It has been hell especially since I had that bad mono episode that put me out of commission. The lab tech fucked up my arm, so I had to take an incomplete for my intro to photoshop class, but I get to complete the final project over the summer, so I guess it's all good. I think I did not do so well on any of my finals, but I did pretty darn good on my research papers, so I think my grades will be okay too. I'm just happy to get another school year out of the way.

But a part of me is kinda dreading the summer in a small way. You see, there is this guy who I had a crush on ever since I first saw him in my writing for mass media class. I had to do an interview with him in front of the class, and I didn't really notice him until that point. He was (and still is) gorgeous! I learned throught the interview that he was in several musicals in high school, was in a band, and went to Russia on a mission trip and loved working with the kids there. So the guy can sing and he likes kids? A man after my own heart. Well, after that we didn't have any other classes with each other, but we would bump into each other every now and then and talk. However, this spring we had History and Theory of Rhetoric together. We didn't talk much for the most part, but towards the end (after my arm got jacked up) we really hit it off. Today, after our final we bumped into each other. He asked me if I thought I aced the test. I told him no. I know I didn't because there was an entire section that I bombed (but I was absent for Toulmin, so I wasn't expecting to do well with that). We talked a little more and he gave me a hug. Then he asked me about my arm and I told him that it was just about one hundred percent. And then he decided that he was going to pray for me, and proceeded to do so praying for good health and for a good summer for me. He also said that I was beautiful and amazing and I had a beautiful soul and a ton of other complements which I couldn't remember because I was on cloud nine.

See, I'm really attracted to him, but I see a problem. I'm agnostic and he's quite a dedicated Christian. He's not one who will thump the Bible down on you--he's pretty chill. However, I feel like the issue of religion would pop up eventually. I think he knows that I'm not religious after the first conversation we had over my arm where he decided to pray for it. That skeptical look came over my face and he said something to the extent of "Well, prayer works, you know." I'm willing to take a chance. I would not knock him for what he believes in, even if I don't believe it. I feel like religion is a personal choice and that no one has the right to force you to believe in a particular believe nor force you to not believing what you believe. These decisions should be solely your own. However, it is in the Bible that interfaith relationships are not meant to be because couples are not able to be spiritually yoked. I think it's BS, but some people feel that. I just hope that we are able to get in touch with each other over the summer and perhaps makes something happen. I'm tired of being single. With all of the stresses in my life now, it would be nice to have someone there supporting me, and just to simply have someone to love and feel loved.