7 posts tagged “finals”

Yay! So another school year has passed. It has been hell especially since I had that bad mono episode that put me out of commission. The lab tech fucked up my arm, so I had to take an incomplete for my intro to photoshop class, but I get to complete the final project over the summer, so I guess it's all good. I think I did not do so well on any of my finals, but I did pretty darn good on my research papers, so I think my grades will be okay too. I'm just happy to get another school year out of the way.

But a part of me is kinda dreading the summer in a small way. You see, there is this guy who I had a crush on ever since I first saw him in my writing for mass media class. I had to do an interview with him in front of the class, and I didn't really notice him until that point. He was (and still is) gorgeous! I learned throught the interview that he was in several musicals in high school, was in a band, and went to Russia on a mission trip and loved working with the kids there. So the guy can sing and he likes kids? A man after my own heart. Well, after that we didn't have any other classes with each other, but we would bump into each other every now and then and talk. However, this spring we had History and Theory of Rhetoric together. We didn't talk much for the most part, but towards the end (after my arm got jacked up) we really hit it off. Today, after our final we bumped into each other. He asked me if I thought I aced the test. I told him no. I know I didn't because there was an entire section that I bombed (but I was absent for Toulmin, so I wasn't expecting to do well with that). We talked a little more and he gave me a hug. Then he asked me about my arm and I told him that it was just about one hundred percent. And then he decided that he was going to pray for me, and proceeded to do so praying for good health and for a good summer for me. He also said that I was beautiful and amazing and I had a beautiful soul and a ton of other complements which I couldn't remember because I was on cloud nine.

See, I'm really attracted to him, but I see a problem. I'm agnostic and he's quite a dedicated Christian. He's not one who will thump the Bible down on you--he's pretty chill. However, I feel like the issue of religion would pop up eventually. I think he knows that I'm not religious after the first conversation we had over my arm where he decided to pray for it. That skeptical look came over my face and he said something to the extent of "Well, prayer works, you know." I'm willing to take a chance. I would not knock him for what he believes in, even if I don't believe it. I feel like religion is a personal choice and that no one has the right to force you to believe in a particular believe nor force you to not believing what you believe. These decisions should be solely your own. However, it is in the Bible that interfaith relationships are not meant to be because couples are not able to be spiritually yoked. I think it's BS, but some people feel that. I just hope that we are able to get in touch with each other over the summer and perhaps makes something happen. I'm tired of being single. With all of the stresses in my life now, it would be nice to have someone there supporting me, and just to simply have someone to love and feel loved.

And it feels good. Last week, I took my finals and now I'm just waiting on my grades. From five classes I think I got 2 A's (Design I and Yoga) and the rest are B's (Television Broadcasting, Theories in Human Communication, and Acts of the Apostles). I have realized that I thoroughly am done with the idea of doing cable news or any form of broadcast journalism (unless they give me a good damn salary and benefits). I loved doing some of the projects in TV Broadcasting, but I think we just were not allowed to be creative enough and there were to many projects to give adequate enough attention to. Editing takes a really long time, and we were practically flying by the seat of our pants be cause our professor did not know how to operate Adobe Elements. However, I have not given up on communication at all.

I've also learned that I cannot afford to do an internship during the summer, since one has to pay a summer tuition fee to get the credits. So now I have the dilemma of trying to find internships for either fall or spring, but I still want to work in the computer lab because I don't want to leave the kids. They get pretty sad when workers leave, so I would like to stay there as long as I can.

Enough about uni. It's the holiday season, and so one tends to think about gifts and purchasing things. Unfortunately, I cannot afford to buy any of my folks gifts because the money that I've earned is going to go towards my books which happens to be more expensive than the previous years :(  I was going to go on a rant about how shitty it is that we have to pay a ton of money for a new edition of a book when they only change a small portion of the book from the last edition, but I decided not to. If you were in college, you understand my frustration. Also what I don't get is that one's best chance to get used books is if they pre-order with a credit card at the bookstore. My thing is, those who want the used books are the ones most likely to not have a credit card, and who is scrambling at the last minute to get cash to buy the books, i.e. ME!  So, I sort of ranted anyways...*shrugs*

Well, I better go grab breakfast. My stomach is beginning to gurggle a little to loudly.

Yesterday I finished my last final at 3 p.m. and turned in my books. I got $160+ back; however, they wouldn't buy back my Spanish books, which were the most money. Grrrr. I woke up and the first thing I wanted to do was knit. I'm just knitting a swatch. With the book money got, I'll probably get some more yarn and attempt to make a scarf.

So now, I'll tidy up my room, send some things to my professors and probably knit more.

Oh, I've been speaking to one of the producers in the non-fiction department at North by Northwest productions and she wants to meet me in January to talk. I've been communicating with her via e-mail for the past year. She's going to teach a Jan term class. I'm registered for another film class that teaches the fundamentals of filming, but we'll get to talk to each other more often and in person.

But I don't feel like it! I need to stop procrastinating. It's a lot easier said than done. Really, I don't have that much motivation. Sure, getting good grades should be a good incentive, but it's not enough. I guess I should really want to end the semester on a good note, so maybe that should give me motivation. I don't know...beside American National Politics, everything else seems irrelevant.

After four days of not having to go to work, Alan, the owner of the company, decided to call me and see if I wanted to help out with stuffing envelopes. My next paycheck is going to be really crappy. They have been having problems getting shipments in, so there was nothing for me to do. I'm hoping that during winter holiday I'll be able to do 8 hour shifts. I want to have some money saved up so that I can get a new cell phone.

This is what I'm shooting for:

See, it's all nice and pink. I remember a time where I really didn't like pink all that much because it was too "girly." Now I think it's a pretty cool color, at least certain shades of it are. I think it would definitely work better than the phone I have now...Hell, anything would be better than the Nokia 6010 I have now. (Cheap ass mofo!)
I've had it for two years now (my contract is almost up). I don't get half of my calls with the damned thing. Not only that, the games on it sucks.

I was just thinking about what am I going to do for winter holiday besides work and I realized that the only person I might hang out with (well, we see each other no doubt) is my friend Sean. My supposed BFF is preggers and she's has her own stuff to deal with with her not-quite-boyfriend-but-quite-possibly-the-baby's-father we probably won't see any of each other. Oh, crap I almost forgot my other buddy who I haven't talked to in a while. Maybe we can chill for a bit. Honestly, I think I need to get to know more people, but I don't feel like I can connect with anyone at my uni. I feel like such an outsider because I have different opinions about religion and such.

I haven't been on AIM in ages. I thin I'm going to start to log in more often. It's cheaper than taking on my cell phone.

Well, so far we had Roscoe for about four days. I'm starting to think that the bassett hound breed is not the kind of dog I want. Don't get me wrong--I really like Roscoe, but I need one that's a bit more obedient. I think it's cool that Roscoe is really chill, but he's just too damn stubborn. Everything has to be his way or no way. I know that bassett hounds are not ones who will come to you when you call his or her name, but hell, it's too damn cold to go outside and try to bring him in. I think when I get a dog, it'll be a Golden Retriever or something...then again, I like small dogs...maybe a cardigan welsh corgi. And also, my mom has a short temper, and finds Roscoe annoying. I don't want to have deal with keeping Roscoe away from her when she's agitated (which for the majority of the time, it's over nothing). I think it would be better if he had a different home.

As for homework. It's winding down to finals week, and I am feeling tired. My American National Politics prof gave the questions for the finals. They are four essays and two of them will be on the exam. My goal today is to: 1.) work on my presentation for Intro to public speaking and get that out of the way.  It's a persuasive speech and my topic is the "herofication" of historic figures and events and how it is lessing the quality of education. I think it's going to be really good, and it's also one of the things I want to do a mini documentary on someday. The second thing I want to do is work on question #1 for the exam. I mean, I at least want to get all of my facts together, but if I do have energy I want to write out an essay with the facts in it, and maybe print it out on our 4" x 6" notecard. Oh, and the third thing I want to do is read more of Basic Black by Cathie Black, the president of Hurst Publications. It's a really good book on how to keep your goal in perspective and balancing out your career life with having a family life. So far it's been really interesting and doesn't have that feel of a self-help book...maybe because she isn't a therapist. I'm a planner, and since my future in journalism is a but uncertain I'm looking for some guidance. Since I don't have a mentor at school to go to, I need to get some advice elsewhere. I think this book, is a slice of what I need.

I have some really good news. I finally got to register into a film class for Jan-Term. Yay! The program that my uni uses for registering is really crappy, so I had to wait a few weeks before I could frickin change my classes. I dropped my second semester of Spanish (I need some time to really learn those concepts before I attempt to do the second semester because my prof is just not getting to me. I'm thinking about dropping it as a minor. I'm also thinking about picking up Poli Sci as another major, but I don't know how dedicated I'm going to be with writing the papers. It's interesting, but I don't know for sure if I should double major in Journalism and Political Science...maybe I should stick with one.

It looks like I have today off again...which I think is good. I can take a bit of time to watch Tucker: The Man and his Dream today in the Library and take a few notes...Oh, crap that reminds me that I have to re-write my movie write-up for All The President's Men and Good Night and Good Luck. I'll spread that out for the rest of the week.

When I went to the library to check out Basic Black I found out they had the Ken Burns documentary called Jazz. I wanted to see it for a long time, because I missed it when it first aired. Now I've checked out the fourth video cassette which covers the 20's and the depression. So on this one they talk about Frankie Manning and the whole Lindy Hop/Swing era. I'm excited to see it since I am a fan of Lindy Hop and Swing. Also, the reference librarian suggested that I check out the first video cassette of Martin Scorsese's documentary on Blues. I didn't know he did something like this, so I'm going to try to watch it tonight, if I have time.

Well I better go and get ready for class.

Boy am I tired. I'm working on an article for newspaper. My partner has been really great thus far. She started the article and right now I'm just fixing up things and adding some stuff. It's tiring though. We have a lot of info for this and it's going to be quite long. I think I'm going to wrap it up by 10 tonight and then wake up early tomorrow morning (probably around 6 a.m.) and work on it. I have found that I am definitely a morning person and not a night owl. I do some of my best work in the mornings, so normally that's when I do homework and other things. I think what also factors into this is that no one is up in my house in the very early hours of the morning...I should start writing my short stories at twilight.

Today, I completed my first full work week at my job. Yay! Some weird thing happened with the shipments of supplies for some things that we put in the bags, and because the shipping company is crappy, the stuff probably won't be in Monday, so I might have the day off...You probably don't know what I'm talking about. Here's what we've been doing lately at my job. Our electric company has this program for people who are late on paying their electric bills. They are giving them packages with energy saving stuff (according to the letter we put in the bag, all of the stuff is worth $33). The thing is, I don't think most of these people can afford buying this stuff. They only give them one energy saving light bulb. What about the rest of the house? They are going to need more rope caulking than what they do get. Anyways, there's not enough stuff for them to really be able to save a significant amount of energy...Well, that's what I do. It pays well and it has very flexible hours.

Finals week is two weeks away. I'm feeling the stress to get ready for it, but it seems I never have enough time to study, and when I do I always fall asleep in the middle of studying. I think I'm not getting enough rest or my biological clock is just not set to the normal 24 hour period. I don't know...

Well I better get back to working on my story. I want to get it done as soon as possible.

At about 7:30 p.m. I was greeted with a ton of snow falling on my head. It was cold. Luckily I was wearing my winter parka. It was really pretty because it was completely dark and the lights from the buildings on campus reflected off of the flakes. It was pretty cool.

I have my last story to do for newspaper and then I'm officially done with it. I'm working with someone on this so it eases up the work load. On Wednesday, I have have to do a group presentation for intro to public speaking. So far the damn thing sucks. Not because of the content or anything, but because I can't meet up with the people of my group. They all live on campus so they can meet up at 9 at night. I don't live on campus nor do I have a car. After going to class and going to work, I don't feel like heading back to campus to meet up with people. We do need to run through it so I'm trying to make my best effort to meet these people. I really haven't had time to practice by myself. Oh, and I just discovered today that I have to come up with a 6-7 minute persuasive speech. I don't know what I'm going to talk about, but I guess I'll figure it out.

Finals week is almost here (in two weeks in some odd days)! Thank goodness. On the other hand, it friggin' sucks. Get this, on that Friday I have to stay on campus from 8 a.m. to 5:30 p.m. to take two tests! I don't even get to go to work that day which makes it an even more sucky day. I want to get paid, damn it! I don't think I'll be able to go to work on that Monday either because of the odd hour my Spanish final is, but I'll have to check out a few things. I'm trying to look on the bright side, there's only two more weeks of this semester left! YAY!