7 posts tagged “frustration”

NOW! So, I've been making strides to loose weight and have lost about 30 pounds since February, but I am frustrated. I have reached a plateau. However, the plateau is not the problem. Lately I have been buying new clothes and I've noticed something, I can see my fat rolls through my tops. My tops love to just lay in the crevasse between rolls. It is annoying as hell. No matter how loose my tops are, they just tend to lay on my rolls. It is so frustrating. I know there is no exercise that really targets this problem, so I have to spice up my exercise routine...I just need to figure out how though. The treadmill is getting really boring so I guess I just need to check out what is on OnDemand and do that for the time being until I find something that I really like to do.

Also, I went bra shopping and I would like to know, when in the hell did my boobs decided to become DD? I don't know when this growth happened, but I don't like it. It has made bra shopping sightly difficult and costly. I lost weight in each one of my problem area's but it seems that my boobs got larger. WTF. SHRINK DAMN IT!

I'm back at work. No one is here, which I find a good thing. During my lunch break I'll have to make a stop to campus to get some things straighten out at the financial aid office. I have been going back and forward to campus trying to get my financial aid stuff situated, but the people that work there do not have their shit together. If they aren't losing a form, then they are trying to charge me ahead of time for tuition or some fee that doesn't even apply to me. This time around, I have to go because the accountant that filled out the tuition payment plan form did something wrong and the company that they are working with try to charge me $756.88 when they weren't even supposed to touch my account until August and payments were not supposed to be that high. And of course, I did not have that much money to give to these people. So I got in contact with the company, got my contract canceled, and the money was returned. Somehow, word did not get to student accounting services, so I have to go there and let them know what's on the up and up.

I AM SOOOOOO GLAD THIS IS MY LAST YEAR!

I serious thought about going to grad school and becoming a professor, but you know what? Now that I've been though this shit, I think I'm done with school. Other than going to community college for a bit to improve my Spanish skills. I don't want to have to worry about this stuff any more.

Today I have something to rant about as it pertains to my grade in a class. Yesterday, I thought I had time to stop by the library to check out the movie "Eat a Bowl of Tea" for my midterm assignment for Asian American Film and Lit class. However, my midterm for rhetoric took me some extra time to complete and I did not have time to watch it at all because I had to run to work. So I come home, thinking that I could rent it at Blockbusters or some other video rental place since I had see it on several of their websites. Of course this doesn't mean that the movie was going to be at the sote, but I just thought that since it was an American production and that it was slightly successful, it would be in a store or two. There is a maxim that my Grandma likes to say "Thought like lint. Thought you farted but you shitted." Well, that pretty much says it all. It was not in any store. I couldn't buy it. I have no time to get it off of netflix. Hell, I couldn't even download it illegally. So, I emailed my professor with a list of alternative movies that I could do the same analysis with of which I have access to. She hasn't emailed me back yet. So I am just going to watch either "Joy Luck Club," "Saving Face," or "The Wedding Banquet" tonight, take notes, and then write an analysis about it.

But anyways, I am piss off. WHY IN THE HELL DID WE HAD TO BE ASSIGNED A MOVIE THAT IS HARD TO COME BY WHERE I LIVE? WHY? WHY? Yes I did have to write that in caps. WTF? Why is it that she has not answered my email. I don't think she would dock me too many points for not watching the same film that everyone else did because she knows what happened with my mom which caused me to miss class. GRRRRRR!!!! And it was on not to long ago, and I filpped the channel!!!! GRRRRRR!!!!!

And no it's not that fever...fever as in 102 degrees! To the point where I can't think straight, and that I can't do anything I want to do because my head feels like it's been stuffed up with cotton or some substance like that. Hell, I don't even know how I'm blogging coherently. I supposed to get my accuracy checks done and work on my article, but I haven't been able to do that. I hate being sick!!!!!! Although it is giving me a little more time so I can talk to a few more sources.

And no it's not that fever...fever as in 102 degrees! To the point where I can't think straight, and that I can't do anything I want to do because my head feels like it's been stuffed up with cotton or some substance like that. Hell, I don't even know how I'm blogging coherently. I supposed to get my accuracy checks done and work on my article, but I haven't been able to do that. I hate being sick!!!!!! Although it is giving me a little more time so I can talk to a few more sources.

So today wasn't as busy as I thought it would be...which is a bad thing. Now all of my interviews will be on Wednesday and Thursday. It's beginning to look like I'll be spending most of Thursday night working on my stories. Again, this is what I get for procrastinating, but hell when you feel like you need time to do other things in classes and get some sleep it's kind of hard to take the extra time to do interviews and write articles. It's not a fast process at all.

Some sources are not getting back to me so I'm going to have to scurry for some. I still haven't touched up my story memo so I'm going to have to scrape up something.

I've been listening to a lot of Mark Ronson music. I think I might buy his new album...I don't if I can because I'm broke. Which leads me to the topic du jour: Yo necesito un trabajo.

Yep, The title says it all. There are about three reasons why I want a job right now.

1. I'm tired of being broke all of the time!  I want to buy a few things and I don't have any damn money. Allowance isn't enough to get everything. If I had a job by now I would be able to buy my cleansing creams for my face, makeup and makeup tools, new clothes, a good digital camera, a new iPod shuffle and a few iTunes cards, and a camcorder  with Avid Xpress video editing software. I'm trying to get on my feel so I could create some news clips and send them to Current TV and Channel One, but I have no money!
2. I'm 19 now and I don't have a job. That's just sad.
3. I need some medical, dental and eye insurance. The state took me off of medicaid because I turned 19. They switch me to basic health, but it doesn't cover my glasses and eye exams, and since I do need my glasses it's pretty important that I get my eyes checked (which I need to do soon, but I can't afford to go and get an exam done).

I've been searching, but no one wants to hire me. I don't have flexible hours because I have classes and I'm on the newspaper staff (I'm going to take a sabbatical next year, but that's another post for another day). I don't really have any job experience and I don't have any volunteering under my plate. I don't want to work at a fast food joint so that limits my options by quite a bit. I've been applying all over the place, but no one has called. Target was the only place that had the courtesy to let me know that I wasn't suitable for the job by sending me a card thanking me for applying (that was really nice). Now, I'm thinking my only option is Wal-mart, but I really don't want to work for them either. This sucks ass.

I don't know what to do. Does anyone have any ideas? I need help!